Kamis, 17 Desember 2009

WHEN HE OPENS...NO ONE CAN SHUT..NEITHER CAN I

I should learn and keep in mind from the recent issue.. to "go forward"...fight against my own fear that has been nagging, gnawing and once again trying to plunder my courage..It seemed impossible, it looked blur that time.. almost no support from people around me..even several jumped to their own conclusion carelessly and "hoped I couldn't get thru...."
I live in varied society.. it is normal....in fact it is not wise to hope something to hope a support from others...

that time I was so confused .. and I have almost agreed with people around me I have almost surrended my self to the fear.. and walked from TRAUMA TO THE DEEPER TRAUMA.

It was started on the early of November...the next day HE sent someone and talked to me not to be discouraged...and also sent my mom to say the same story not to give up..mom said to try again and again .. saying all of my cousins were worse than me before.

my mind said "you cannot" the rest of my broken courage said "you can" ... I've prayed and prayed asking His protection, supra natural talent..and now the trauma is gone

quoted from the verse psalm 94: 18-19 today:
"when I said "my foot is slipping," Your love, O Lord, supported me, Your -consolation brought joy to my soul."

He gives me strength
He makes me courageous
He supports me
He has thousand ways to help and heal me

HE OPENS THE DOOR........no one can say no !!!!