dawn in the rain

dawn in the rain...
take the deep sigh
cold outside...cold inside
take out the agony...
covering all around


.....I wake up this night
around 3 dawn in the morning
my eyes still wet with tears

heavy rain outside
just like heavy tears dropping on my pillow...
that night !!!

diary June 5th 1995

simple

the term is so simple
simple and simple...
simple to be followed...
simple to be declined


what is it simple ???
simple to get hurt...
or
simple to be free ???


diary April 28 1995

my heart is empty

my heart towards you is empty...

no hatred...
as this is nothing to do with you

no love...
even I doubt your existence

BUT

one hundred reasons ask me to love you
the most of them cos of Jesus


diary march 11th 1997

love is

love is...
something unexposed
something unspoken

'cos

its shyness to be known by...
its fear to grab the freedom of...
its worriness to bother...
its care not too hurt...

"THE BELOVED'S FEELINGS


diary march 12th 1997

sepi

senandung sepi sendiri...
sendu senada senja.
sekarang sewaktu senja....
seakan selalu sendiri

diary sept 1994

seeing your smiles

my hidden tears dropping...
penetrating..... freezing in my heart
do nothing but contemplate...
can it melt and vapour ???

hoping in thousand days...
even I never deserve...
seeing your smiles...
at last !!!

diary feb 7th 1991

past memory

I can feel the sweet now,
when I remember the past bitterness
I can feel joyful now,
when I remember the past sorrowness
I can feel lucky now.
when I remember the past wretchedness


I can feel abundant now,
when I remember the past long lacking
I can feel secured now,
when I remember the past threatening
I can feel relaxed now,
when I remember the past damn rushing


*** Thanks God.....everything is perfect in YOUR HAND ****