am I happy ?

Last time several men uttered the question to me if I was happy in term of my marriage. I wonder why they asked me, did they ask the same question to others ?, or maybe I did invited the question 'cos of my countenance - did I look desperate to them ?

Dealing with that kind of question...I was competent enough to give the wise answer that I myself never knew from who, where or when I have learned or what had inspired me to say " happy or not it depends on me in this matter not because of the man I have married." ALWAYS I remind myself the answer is the most appropriate, it is insane if I blame him. And thanks God it helps me to resist the sin of accusing him.

Now at 3 am surprisingly the same question is popping out again but this time is being uttered by myself "am I happy ?"
For this time I cannot just replay the record to give the same answer..instead I ask why that question asked by myself ? Anyway I'm choosing to search the answer...
firstly I said " I am supposed to be happy because I have THE LORD "
soon another voice said to replace the first one " I have to be happy " but suddenly the final one is coming out and commanding me to say
" I AM HAPPY "