the "what"

what grabbed my cheerfulness ?

what took my passion ?

what faded my courage ?

what haunted me ?

what daunted me ?

................
................ the "anxiousness" did ............

on 27th of july 2011 he passed away...

he is my father...he is now with my Lord Jesus ...i try but still it is difficult for me to imagine how happy he is now...!! he loves us so much...he loves his sons...

suddenly i wonder if he still worries about so many things.. like what he did before...or maybe the fact not as the way i think, surely it is not.

he has left us peacefully because he knows all of us in HIS PERFECT HAND and as GOD has worked on him HE also never fail on us.....smile

no more jitters and no dismay...

Bursting with worries and too much fear were really something pulled me away from my true destiny GOD has planned me to be so far. It grabbed the smile and stole the beauty of the life itself for so many many of my years until three days ago in my prayer with desperate courage the question came out representing my uneasy heart that suffered so much because of this " what's wrong with me ?" "what's my fault Lord ?" and suddenly I have got the answer....worries and fear ....are the factors I should fight against .

....THE CROWN OF TRIUMPH PAVES MY WAYS AHEAD....
if GOD with me who can be against me ?

Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed; for the Lord thy God is with thee ....Joshua 1: 9b

BAPA .. THANK YOU.

who starts the war ?

???????

!!!!!!!

i am deserved !!!

after long monotonous kind of lamentation colored my attitude and fringed my previous writing reflected the faded mentality and weak courage and now just today HE has opened my eyes widely and HE has just given me the scripture John 17: 1-25 and I derive the following from it

* i am YOURS

* BAPA protects me by the power of HIS name

* i will have the full measure of JESUS' joy

* "for them I sanctified MYSELF, that they too may be truly sanctified" John 17: 19

* "I have given them the glory.." John 17:22

* YOU never live me and i will see YOUR GLORY

and the last point YOU are earnestly eager for my happiness, for seeing my bright smile that the last gloomy time i frequently admitted i never deserved yet caused of JESUS , HIS SACRIFICE, that empower me now i have aborted all the curses and i have been declaring

*** I AM DESERVED to have the above points and as HIS dearest i claim HIS desire
to make me whole and happy .....and again i am deserved to have beautiful life
forever. and again i am deserved !!!


THANK YOU JESUS.....THANK YOU for the beautiful Easter gift ever......

i am deserved !!!

for we are to God the aroma of Christ.. 2 Cor 15

today is Chinese new year and I am here instead of coming back to my hometown seeing my hospitalized father. am I loaded with too many things in my mind ?? in fact I am not taking any step.. to deal with them.. and because really I am not in the capacity for handling and since the last several months God has made me realized that's not my part and either the Salvation or the Deliverance all comes from HIM only...HIS passion ..HIS love.....HIS compassion....HIS words...HIS will.

Yes YOUR WORDS saying if one is safe...the whole household will be safe..that's awesome that's the proof of your compassion upon us..

Lord thank YOU for Your Sacrifice..on behalf of my family, especially my father, I say thank You and forgive our sins.

make us be the aroma of Christ before BAPA.........